Capitulo 90 *Ingles*

love researching, and I (might) have found it. Ciel might have depersonalization disorder. It is, and this is a copy-paste from the page:

Having depersonalization has sometimes been described as being numb or in a dream, or feeling like you are watching yourself from outside your body. There is a sense of being disconnected or detached from one’s body. This often occurs after a person experiences life-threatening danger, such as an accident, assault, or serious illness or injury. Symptoms may be temporary or persist or recur for many years. People with the disorder often have a great deal of difficulty describing their symptoms and may fear or believe that they are going crazy.
Ok, this is exactly what happened to Ciel: life-threatening danger. And I believe (correct me if I am wrong) he said his capture was like a bad dream?

Another thing he might have is DID (dissociative identity disorder). Again, I’m copy-pasting:

DID, formerly called multiple personality disorder, develops as a childhood coping mechanism. To escape pain and trauma in childhood, the mind splits off feelings, personality traits, characteristics, and memories, into separate compartments which then develop into unique personality states. Each identity can have its own name and personal history. These personality states recurrently take control of the individual’s behavior, accompanied by an inability to recall important personal information that is too extensive to be explained by ordinary forgetfulness.

DID is a spectrum disorder with varying degrees of severity. In some cases, certain parts of a person’s personalities are aware of important personal information, whereas other personalities are unaware. Some personalities appear to know and interact with one another in an elaborate inner world. In other cases, a person with DID may be completely aware of all the parts of their internal system.

Because the personalities often interact with each other, people with DID report hearing inner dialogue and the voices will comment on their behavior or talk directly to them. It is important to note the voices are heard on the inside verses the outside as this is one of the main distinguishers from schizophrenia.

People with DID will often lose track of time and have amnesia to life events. They may not be able to recall things they have done or account for changes in their behavior. Some may lose track of hours while some lose track of days. They have feelings of detachment from one’s self and feelings that one’s surroundings are unreal.

While most people cannot recall much about the first 3 to 5 years of life, people with dissociative identity disorder may have considerable amnesia for the period between the ages of 6 and 11 as well. Often times, people with DID will refer to themselves in the plural.
I actually, after reading this, think Ciel suffered (and is suffering) a mix of both, that’s why he spoke in third person, and saw himself in the cage. This got triggered by the werewolf attack, and the subsequent purification.

Rant off. Thanks for reading.

(The bold phrases are the ones that can relate to Ciel’s trauma)